In terms of scenes, that is not mine. I dunno, maybe I will go through a phase like that at some time but I doubt it. When I lie around in a room full of people I get claustrophobic.
I'm alone and I'm not sure if I like it. I am utterly alone, I could die and nobody would find out until the housekeeper came in to clean. Nobody cares about me. But I am also free, free to create, free to be me, free to read or watch TV or just lie on my ass and feel sorry for myself. Nobody gives a damn about what I do and what happens to me and I feel liberated. I was planning to use this summer to improve myself to impress Ms. Heartstomper, but since that's not going to happen I think I might try to improve myself to impress me and move even further away from socialization. The first time I went to school I used to hang out by myself reading bad magazines in fast food joints, I might go back to that.
Nobody reads this anymore except my shrink and that's okay. Even here, in public, with my innermost thoughts on display, I am alone and isolated. It's liberating to know that you can shout into the void and not encounter an echo.