Here there be monsters (socratic) wrote,
Here there be monsters

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Well I'm feeling pretty good right about now. I think that you're supposed to talk about events in these journals, but not much has been happening in my life recently. Not that it's usually a blur of activity, but I've pretty much done nothing of import for the last week or so. I don't know, I think I have a problem with just doing stuff for stuff's sake. It bores me. Of course I'm bored right now, but at least I'm bored and comfortable. Another problem is that I absolutely hate traveling by train or bus, and in New York those are pretty much the main choices. Standing around for half an hour just to be able to stand around in a smelly subway car only to get out and stand in a hot as hell station just to wait I hate it.

Scratch most of that. My mom just called me and started in with her irritating stories of how I messed up and how she's socializing with the mother of a person I really don't like. I finally told her to go away. She called back to complain about what I said to her (truths we both know and nothing CLOSE to the stuff she routinely says to me) and told me to lie to make her feel good. Why is it that whenever I have achieved any peace at all something has to come along to make me feel like crap? Some days I just want to grab a revolver and blow my brains out. It's a good thing that you can't get a gun in New York City.
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