I do regret not being more social, although I'm not sure why. I guess it's because my attitudes towards that aspect of my life have been changing recently. It's definitely noticeable to people who know me. It used to be that I would be hesitant to go any place where there were large crowds of people and had trouble dealing with people that I didn't know. Now I'm much more confident and have no real problem encountering novel social situations. I still don't really LIKE socializing though and there's the rub. On the other hand it's a necessary skill for the business world and to have contacts.
The more I read about hollywood the less it seems likte it would be for me. It is a youth obsessed image driven industry that cares solely about the profit margain. Independent film might be an interesting avenue to pursue but I'm sure it would also be a frustrating one. It's incredible that people like David Lynch or Terry Gilliam ever got any work at all when you think about it. Maybe I'll focus on literary writing. It may be less profitable and in some ways less exciting but it's also got more freedom.
Or maybe I'll just become a lawyer, a psychologist, or take on some other profession that offers a paycheck and some satisfaction without all the angst, uncertainty, and reliance on luck.
Right now I feel really cruddy. I've gained like 7 pounds since last week but I think it's all backed up in my colon. I feel stuffed to the gills and I haven't eaten much since lunch yesterday, skipping dinner. I also slept quite a bit yesterday. This may all be carb related so I'll cut those out for awhile and see what happens. It may just be the last remnants of my spring break sickness. Whatever it is, it sucks most mightily.