I got a letter today inviting me to join Phi Beta Kappa, and I must admit that I feel pretty good about that and also sort of guilty about feeling good because intellectually I dismiss such honors as rather arbitrary and mostly meaningless. There are Phi Beta Kappas out there doing horrible evil things, and there are probably some who aren't all that bright (there are certainly some out there who aren't as bright as non-PBKs.) I also secretly suspect that this is some kind of mistake. Maybe they didn't get the notice that I dropped out of the Poli-Sci honors program. Maybe they have me confused with someone else. There are 270 schools with chapters and 15000 members elected anually. That works out to 55.5 members elected per school. Even if Columbia is granted a larger alotment than that I still don't know if my GPA is high enough to put me in that group and I don't have anything else going that would help me get in (although I assume it's purely a GPA cut off thing.) Maybe some other people declined to join and I was like an alternate. Who knows. I wouldn't be surprised if the offer were rescinded and I feel pretty bad for liking the fact that it was made in the first place.
I managed to work "Boston Porn Party" into a class today, in reference to the more famous tea party that took place in that very town. Now THERE'S an achievement I can rest my hat on! I was accused of having planned the phrase but it occursed spontaneously during the course of my thought. I should probably seek competent professional help.
I'm trying to get back to eating well and it's going mediocre. Need to crack down. Also have quite a bit of work to do for my classes. Fricking classes. No word on TFA, I guess they aren't emailing out information just sending it via snail mail. I don't know if I'd take it anyway. It might be time to take the plunge and try to get into a film school. PBK could help, if it's real for me.
I'm reading a new book called the war of art. It's ghastly. A terrible terrible book with lots of meaningless or downright false plattitudes. Does anyone have an idea for a GOOD book about the meaning of life or a way of unlocking artistic inspiration?
On the plus side, with all this stuff going on in my life right now my desire for a woman has seriously gone down.
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