That's what I'm not going to do anymore, not after this semester, not unless it's necessary. I HAVE to do some research today and I'm dreading it. The topic is interesting but I want to THINK not read complex legal opinions written as obfuscation of obvious political goals. I don't want to have to engage lies as if they were serious arguments. I don't want to read Scalia, that Italian Stallion of neo-conservative bullshit.
Last night I watched the boxing matches with Emeka. He had a bad headache but they were some pretty great fights, especially Pac-Man vs Marquez, wow that was a barnburner. Anyway he recieved almost a dozen pages and calls on his cellphone while we were wathing. I don't know how he has time to THINK with all those incoming requests for his attention and companionship. It's just such a radically different thing than I would ever want. I'd be happy with like 10 good friends to talk things over with, and maybe a romantic interest to fool around with once or twice a week. That last bit's optional though.
He's probably got upwards of a hundred people he considers friends. I can't fathom it.
I'm so listless right now. My head hurts, I'm tired, I don't know what I want to do next. I'm lonely but I don't really want to be around people.
Ugh ugh ugh.