I'm back to thinking that there are certain skills I haven't developed yet and because of my advanced age I will never master them. This is making me resigned which is what my mood wood be were that to be an option.
This summer has been mostly wasted. I am a waste of skin. Hee-Ann isn't going to email me before the final test in his class so I'm going to have to go it alone.
I am pathetic
I am unloveable
I am alone
I am not smart
I am not destined for anything
I am not permanently scarred by my father's sucide
I am not a victim
I am just below average.
Just another schlub building block of society for the great ones to stand on.