Instead I'm going to try to get an internship and learn on the job. That will be good for me in some ways, to get out there into the real world and do some work, even if thanks to my Mother's stupidity I won't be getting paid. She's proof that academics just don't get the world. I don't claim to be Mr. common sense, but I know that you don't volunteer to work free unless you're asked and you check the length of your lease before you consider whether to sign it or not.
This was, unexpected. I can't say that I'm happy about the outcome, but I'm going to deal with it. I wish this was a better entry but to tell the truth at the moment I'm feeling a bit too ambiguously about the whole situation to put down a reasonable analysis of what I think. It's going to be a brave new world. This isn't an ending or even really a roadblock. It's a detour, and it might even get me where I want to go faster. But I'm off the map now, and the scenery is unfamiliar. It's an odd feeling