April 12th, 2005


On second thought maybe the whole judgment day thing isn't such a bad idea

I thought I was done ranting for the night but the world keeps fanning my flames.

I was watching a little Bill O'Reilly (Never a good idea, but I can't help but stare at his curiously blotchy face) and he had on professional crazy woman Rebecca Hagelin. She was talking about her new book on (bad) parenting and gave some examples of how she raised her kids. I almost threw up. She basically said that the way to raise a good kid is to CAREFULLY censor what he or she sees and is able to talk about so that only "good influences" get in. She talked about how she kept her 17 year old son from watching MTV or R rated movies (Except, of course, the Passion of Mel Gibson's bulging wallet) and how he had no complaints about having his entire world view decided by his mommy and how he recoiled at inappropriate sights when he encountered them. Now either she's batshit insane or he's one of those creepy fucking moralistic kids who ends up raping a girl because he can't express his sexuality towards her in a healthy or honest way. It's possible that he's gay, which is fine by me, but would completely undermine her argument because she sure doesn't want to raise a faggot. She kept him away from the homosexual agenda (Of course the true homosexual agenda is abnormal hormone exposure in the womb. But we all know that's caused by too many episodes of Will & Grace anyway.) so he should be sexually attracted to women but only when he's married to them.

Holy shit.

I mean my parents espoused a certain ideology, but they never tried to keep me from being exposed to alternative ideas. If I wanted to watch shitty Clint Eastwood movies where the white guy was good and the bad guy was brown, well, that was my business and they'd argue against it but they wouldn't blot it out in the hopes that ignorance would create bliss. Censorship as a parental technique? That's the worst possible way to raise a good citizen, one who isn't prepared to deal with people or ideas that don't agree with him and who is scared of the truth (Hagelin recommends taking your kid out of sex ed class because it's graphic and honest, everything a parent hopes school won't be.)

Even O'Reilly thought she was a nut, but as crazy crazy crazy as she is she's not that far out on the fringe. There are people like her throughout this country corrupting the youth by purifying them and lying to themselves about their kids. The future's so dark I need a mining helmet.

P.S. David Horowitz thinks Roger Ebert is essentially a terrorist. Roger Ebert is a lovable old grandpa who enjoys movies too much. He's an American institution. He's a fucking Midwesterner for god's sake. Maybe these people ARE over-reaching. How many Roger Eberts can you attack before even Taintlanders realize you're completely unhinged?
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Masa of the force

It's magic time

So the magical treadmill fixed itself again. I'm beginning to suspect that the true issue is that it needs to be unplugged for an extended period of time on a regular basis, since both times the error has cropped up that's been what I've done to get it to go away. The owner's manual does suggest that it be unplugged when not in use, but it's phrased as something that an owner should do for safety's sake, not the good of the machine. Since I'm not the type of person to accidently turn on a treadmill and maul myself I hadn't been bothering, but I'll start doing that now and see what happens. It's a minor inconvenience. I got a good workout in today, though a bit of the bloom is off the rose. Not because I don't enjoy the work but rather because I keep worrying about the machine itself. It's like John Wayne towards the tail end of his career, still strong and powerful but you keep waiting for the impending breakdown.

I even had a psychological thing where I felt like the treadmill was slowing down from the speed I set it at as I treaded without telling me. I couldn't quite tell whether my body was warming up and adjusting to the higher speed or the treadmill was faltering and actually going slower. I ended up checking steps per minute and the number didn't change, so it must have been psychological, but it was still weird. Regardless after about 20-30 minutes I started sweating profusely and my heart rate was good, so the actual speed isn't particularly important. It's getting that cardio in that matters. It's good to have the old friend back and today I feel much more upbeat and positive than I did yesterday, not to mention energized and creative.

This whole weird relationship with the treadmill is coming to dominate my life, and it's only been two weeks to the day since it was delivered! Hopefully it will all get sorted out and I'll be able to focus on other things and the actual life part of my...life.
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No remains of this day

Long interesting day. Managed to get over 2 hours of treadmilling in which felt great. I have started using Vaseline for some of the chaffing and it helps. I feel sort of metrosexual slathering it on, but that can't be helped. Hopefully if I can start dropping some more weight it will become unnecessary.

I showed my script to my boss and he was encouraging. He said that it needed some deep cuts, but mostly in the descriptive passages. I was trying to direct the short from the writer's chair, which doesn't work, but I kind of knew I was doing that, I was just worried that a reader wouldn't understand the nuance of the material without visual instruction. He thinks the comedy stands on its own and that it could be slimmed down to 3-4 pages (from 7) and be a really strong slim little calling card to say "I can write." I'm happy with it. I'm not going to start cutting right away, though I probably will this weekend. If any of you folks are interested I can send you a rich text format version of it. I'd post it here but the formatting doesn't work, and formatting is important. I will warn ahead of time that right now it is not a smooth read because of the aforementioned laboriously long descriptive passages. Keep in mind that those passages would not actually appear on the screen, and unlike a novel how a script reads is not nearly important as how it performs. If people want to give feedback that'd be great, but please read the whole thing first. Nothing is less helpful than "I got three paragraphs in and I got bored because I have the attention span of a dead frog." I thought up a new set of much slimmer quicker skits tonight on the train and tomorrow will be dedicated to writing them up. My immediate goal is that when mid May rolls around and I need to get a job I will have some professional quality samples to send out and take a stab at getting some sort of writing job. It's all I want to do and I owe it to myself to try. At some point you have to start taking your shots and collecting your rejection letters. Success is built on the pyre of a thousand failures. That's my new mantra.

P.S. I have officially graduated to "Token Straight Liberal in iconoclast's journal, which is great because he has been certified as one of THE most controversial gays on LJ. If you like your snausage slurpin' with a side order of controversy he's your man.
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