Dr. X asked me what I thought I had learned about him. That's a complex question. On the one hand there are a bunch of facts that he has tossed my way, but that's not all. I'm a pretty intuitive person and I tend to make fairly accurate guesses as to the hidden truths behind what people say, I dunno maybe that sounds insanely arrogant and of course I'm not psychic or always right, but for better or worse I have formed certain opinions about Dr. X. And it is just interesting to me how much I feel that I have learned about him from what he has said in his comments about ME.
Whether these are good or bad things? Who can say. I don't think that he's a murderer or an N'Syncher. Beyond that extreme of depravity there are just shades of grey.
Dr. X made an interesting point about not making a safe choice of an unhappy life out of fear of not being able to find better. I agree in principal but live the opposite way in practise. There ARE no guarantees and if you sacrifice and hold out for something good it may never come. Does less bad=better? Who knows. In trainspotting they say "Choose Life" but I don't think that it's really life that you have to choose. It's a choice between safety and putting it all on the line. The problem with putting it all on the line is that it IS all on the line and the line COULD snap. Any risky fun activity involves causualties and I think you have to be either stupid or faithful to believe that you can't be one of those casualties. Is that a risk you are willing to take?
Dr. X said that he is less likely to say bollocks than to start turning cartwheels. I believe that is a very british way to phrase something because it presupposes a rather formal and old culture. The ironic thing is that when I read that, at first I thought, in my Americanism, that it meant that he was prone to turning cartwheels in place of cursing. I have met people like that. I don't know, it just seemed like a British way to phrase it and as everyone knows, the Brits are a source of endless interest to a lot of Americans. We are culturaly descended from the dregs of their society, the unwanted parts. Well not so much anymore, but back when American culture was less fractured and multi-ethnic, the American culture that I still embrace.
Swearing is an interesting topic for me. My father taught me that there was no such thing as an inherintly bad word, just people who were too stodgy and get too easily offended. I have always taken this to heart and I curse with alarming frequency to some. Just to set myself up as an easy going tytpe who doesn't put much value in decorum. Which I am.
As for the last question Dr. X, the answer is that it was an attempt at a rather wry commentary on the power you give up by choosing to communicate via email and not the journal response function. Privacy like that means you lose the power to define yourself to any other possible readers. It was also a subtle attempt to get you to perhaps come out in the open as it were, so people could see both sides of these little conversations instead of just my side. I guess it was a petty and manipulative way to say that but I guess I can be petty and manipulative. I'm sorry, you can feel free to communicate however you wish. My experiment failed....and that's okay.
P.S. you're not S&P but you are an I. That one's just for you good Doctor.