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iconoclast more than Elizabeth Berkeley did) wandered by my office looking for the casting agency. My boss and I pointed him in the right direction and he wandered off. I'd seen Stuck on You on Sunday and thought he was great in it. I almost mentioned that to him but my "Celebrities get this shit all the time, be different and be normal around them" instincts kicked in and I didn't. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. Not going hyper is a good thing, but some people create relationships and contacts with important people when given the opportunity. It could be good to be more proactive. Oh well, it's something to contemplate.My job is definitely winding down now. Instead of working until 7:30 PM I'm getting let out by 4:15, and my boss is struggling for things to give me to do. I'm sad about this, I like my boss, he's a really nice guy, and I think this job was a good mix of having something to do every day and having lots of free time. While I think I'll be able to find employment again given the fact that I now have a film industry job on the old resume, I'll miss this situation and I may lose a lot of my free time. I had an easy going situation, a little extra pocket money, a good friend to lunch with, and I learned a good deal about the film business, what it takes to be there the kinds of things involved in production and the way semi-marginal companies (the type I am probably best suited to work with) operate. I'll miss it.
I have class tonight in a few minutes, and I'm not sure if I want to do the writing group tomorrow. I don't know if it's just being tired of them or embarrassment over not having produced. I'll probably go but I'm leaving it open for now. I need to just WRITE and I have a ton of stuff I want to write. I'm scared it will turn out badly, or I'll sell it and it will be turned into something awful. Fear counts for nothing. Destroy the fear, do not embrace it. We shall overcome. All that good shit.
