People in general feel like they can talk to me. I like that and I try to engender that feeling among those I know. I'm good at keeping a secret, but only so long as it doesn't interfere with other obligations. When you tell someone about a crime you committed you risk making them an accessory. This has happened a couple times in the last few weeks and it puts me in an uncomfortable position. I believe in law and order, I think that the majority of our laws are just and that most of those that are not should be changed rather than defied. I don't think pot should be illegal but I don't think flouting that law is right either. This country has rampant hypocrisy where people will happily smoke up but won't work to change our drug laws. I'm not a fan of rampant hypocrisy unless it's my own.
On a personal note I was feeling pretty emotional this evening and went through a lot of feeling useless and adrift. I probably should avoid listening to "Total Eclipse of the Heart" 10 times in the same day even if my cheap "80's pop hits" CD did just arrive yesterday and I cut the sentimental crap with heavy doses of The Ramones and Guns N Roses. I know admitting that I actually DID that makes me a 14 year old girl circa 1987, but I'm just going to have to come to grips with that. Besides, it'll give me an excuse to break out my Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles slap bracelets. Tubular!
While I was experiencing my first incident of PMS I did come up with what I think is a really good idea for a dark comedy script. The kind of script I want to write. It's even high concept, which is a good thing for salability. I'm definitely going to write it at some point, but right now I'm torn between continuing the one I was working on and switching horses in midstream to this new one. Part of me wants to just write it up while it's fresh and flowing. Part of me wants to outline it quickly and finish what I started. I definitely don't want to get into the habit of leaving a bunch of half-finished scripts lying around while I keep switching to the newest thing. On the other hand the new idea is much better than the old one. The old one was a fairly thin plot around which I was hanging some funny scenes, gags, and lines. That can work as a movie but it has a relatively low ceiling. It's at best a 2.5 star film. The type you see, kinda like, and forget. At worst it's just painful. The new idea has a higher ceiling. It could be a 3.5 star movie. The kind that's really enjoyable and sticks in your craw, a potential cult classic. At worst it would be a funny movie with a good idea.
The advantage to finishing the one I'm working on is a sense of accomplishment AND more experience. I would know more about what I was doing when entering into the second. The advantage to working on the second one is that it's actually inspired and has a better chance of being something. The first one is a means to an end, the second is an end unto itself.
Right now my plan is to primarily focus on the first and only work on the second when I get a jolt of inspiration. I want to finish what I start because I have a history of not doing that with writing and it's a history I want to change. On the other hand I also want to do the best work possible. It's a conundrum. One thing's for sure, I have a ton of writing to do in the near future. That's a good thing. I may just make it after all.