Here there be monsters (socratic) wrote,
Here there be monsters

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And now I realize that you never heard one goddamned word I ever said

Life has been limping for me recently. I feel like I'm sliding backwards despite my best efforts to continue moving forwards. Kawah came over the day before yesterday and we hung out and he told me about his woes. They were fairly woeful but my chief concern is the fact that he's approaching everything from a negative perspective. "If I don't do this, my life will be over" and all that. We learned the technical name for it in Social Psychology yesterday but it escapes me at the moment.

I was accused of thinking all women are less intelligent than all men, or that at least the averages were swung in that direction, and I don't. I think, although it chafes and irritates me, that the average female is probably better educated and possibly more intelligent than the average male. But I do still feel that there are probably reasons beyond opression that the majority of Thomas Jeffersons and Albert Einsteins and Marie Curies were male.

The accusation was made by someone who read my journal by the way, it's not like I go about espousing these views in public.

I really can't wait for this weekend. The Jets and Giants games have lost so much significance since the WTC destruction that I almost don't care anymore. I don't even know if I will watch. But I do want to get some more sleep and feel a LITTLE bit of stress relief. I also have to start planning to write papers for my various classes so I don't end up in a high preassure situation when deadlines start roling in. In the condition I am in right now I would simply not be able to do my traditional last minute bull rush to get everything finished. I would be in trouble.

I'm tired and lonely these days but I think I'm getting used to it. Not sure if that's a good thing. On the one hand I am kind of actually glad that my life has gone into a mini-tailspin ever since the crash because it's what I sort of expected to happen. On the other hand I am a bit worried that I'm using the WTC as an excuse for stuff that might have happened anyway. Six of one a half dozen of the other? I don't know, if things don't improve over the next week or so I guess I'll try and do something about it, start a project or take up a hobby or go to one of the silly Columbia clubs which I abhor so much but feel obligated to attend. Right now I'm just going to get ready for Spanish class and day dream about sleep.
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