Whenever I read certain advice columns or whatever I always see some of the mistakes that I keep making in dealing with other people, but I am incapable of making the adjustments that I should. I guess it's because I'm both insecure and friendly. I never get upset with people when they make faux pas, and I make them myself as a result. I don't think things through enough. I blew a good chance at something special this summer because I was incapable of being patient and relaxed. I'm such an idiot when it comes to this stuff. Grr, give me a paper to write or whatever. People is difficult to deal with!