On sunday I felt like crap and couldn't get my work done which meant that it was basically all left for yesterday. I got my papers written but they are crap. I also got a test back and I got a 73.5 percent on it. Part of that was because I was ill and part of it was becuase it was graded unfairly, but the average score was 68.5 and the professor refuses to curve. That makes me kinda mad because I don't think that a test which has an average score of a D- is likely to be fair, but what can I do? I'm going to go over it with the professor but oh well, shit happens.
More upsetting, I found out that one of my neighbors died a couple months ago. He was this nice old man who lived upstairs and he was always very sweet to me. I considered going to his memorial but I wouldn't have felt comfortable (People in the building were invited but due to my mother's constant yelling we are FAR from popular in this building)
Today I finished another essay which was nothing more than a placeholder so I wouldn't get a zero and basically collapsed. I really need to find a way to get my feet under me. Also yesterday the books for the GED course hadn't arrived yet and two of my students left in the middle of class. I don't blame them but I feel shitty for doing such a poor job. I just don't know how to TEACH this without the fucking book and I think it's rediculous that they haven't come yet.
I didn't do my reading for social psych today but I will have to make it up at some point because the test is in a week and a half. *sigh*. I am so behind in school work AND so beat down. I can't figure out how I'm going to get set in the pocket (It's a football metaphor and it makes total sense, because I feel like I'm lobbing passes off balance and some are hitting and some are missing and I need to get my feet set so I can run through my progression, read the D and lob a swing or a zing depending on how tight the coverage is) before I do something which has permanent repurcussions on my GPA. Maybe I'm just going to have to be satisfied with like a 3.0 or something this semester. I don't want to though, so I'm gonna work harder. I mean it this time. No fooling.
Really Serious damn you!