Well my mother's going into the hospital today to get some tests done on her heart. They'll do an operation TODAY if they find something wrong. I don't know how to feel. I do know that I'm not ready to lose my mother yet, not to death anyway. But it's probably VERY unlikely that she'll die, if the operation is super risky they tend to wait a bit to do more tests and such. I'm supposed to be focusing on tests right now but.....how? How do you do that at a time like this. Life likes to bury its high heels in my scrotum but no matter how many times it happens I'm STILL not into it.