You know it's often the smaller obligations in life that are the most annoying. Like the elevator in my building is out of service now for about a year so I need to walk down the stairs whenever I want to leave the house and bribe the doormen etc to take me up in the elevator when I want to enter. And this dental shit. I have a JUSTICE paper due tomorrow and I can't focus on it because I've got so much other stuff to keep straight. I'll just have to put aside the whole evening for the paper and suck it up I guess.
Although ironically I probably could have written the whole thing yesterday instead of posting a mammoth 3 page single space list of questions about the lecture to the JUSTICE courseworks discussion board. That's how you really make friends in a class, go to a message board which only has one other question posted on it and just post a huge list of questions about minor issues that you think expose weaknesses in the arguments made in class. The thing is I vastly prefer discussion to writing in response to questions, I like my thought to be freeform and as thoroguh as I like without space constraints.
But that ain't how it works in the world. Maybe I should just chuck it all, drop out of school find a job somewhere and try to concern myself with living the life I want rather than trying to ACHIEVE something (I don't try for education in the hopes of getting money or prestige, I do it because it seems to be the route to take if one wants to DO something in the world.) Maybe I should focus on personal fulfillment in the personal sphere.
Maybe I should just shut up and do some reading before my next class. Decisions Decisions.