It didn't work and I'm happy I was able to absorb it without tasting emotional canvas, but I don't even want it in my head anymore. She was responsible for a lot of things, this journal being a major one (Yeah even though you can't tell from the first few entries I started this journal almost entirely as a reaction to the emotional strife I felt over her) but it really is time to get past her. She deserves better than to be the antagonist of some little nobody's angsty dreams.
I'm gonna win this war with myself. Even if it's just by attrition. I let down my defenses and she got in and played hackey sack with my emotions. But now it's time to expel the barbarians, bar the gates, and make myself the emperor of my own emotional domain.
Blinders on, focus at the road ahead. If I'm going to climb out of this hole it's going to require concentration and no straying. I think I'm ready for that. So fuck you obstacles and fuck you weakness. I'm coming, straight ahead no excuses. End with a W or leave on my back.